The first step to opening your own window is to stop trying to wait for everything to be perfect. If you sit around and wait for the stars to align you will be waiting forever.
There is no such thing as perfect or perfect timing.
Life is terrifying if you strive to be perfect, because you will be so filled with worry about what will break you. You will miss out on so much joy if you focus your thoughts that way.
Please know, it is ok to fail. It is ok to fall apart. It is not ok to unpack your bags and live there.
So chin up buttercup, it’s bound to get better. Give yourself time and grant yourself grace while you work through finding yourself.